Have been feeling very lonely over the past few days. Have been working like mad, too, but at the end of the day would love to go back home to someone. Found out that people have dual faces. There are two things that I do not like about anyone. That is their faces. How can anyone, anyone be so two faced?
Some people just do something because they like it. And they either continue doing it because they like it, but they dream up some weird explanation for it. How far am I willing to go with all of this? Why do I still have nightmares? About someone sitting on my head and breathing into my face?
I am depressed. Work is becoming a means of getting myself occupied. I could not, even in my wildest dreams think that I would one day practise what I had been preaching to all and sundry. I am working my life out, LITERALLY.
Love is keeping me alive. Sometimes I feel betrayed too. But its ok. I guess its the perspective which matters. Its a miracle that neither of us have strayed from the path of righteousness, not yet, at least.
And boy, do I hate someone for screwing me up so bad. Had it not been for someone else in my life, he would have died by now. Cover ups are a part of life. I HAVE TO MOVE ON.
I just dont know how. I come, I go, I hate it. How I would love to have someone to go home to. I hate it. I HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE THAT B****TARD.
Sometimes feel like slashing my wrists and watch the blood flow freely. It would be nice to see the life flow out of you. Literally. Morbid? You bet. Disgusting??? Naah... not to me...
Sometimes feel like killing the person reponsible for all this. But just refuse to think back on all those days...
HAVE STARTED TO HATE LIFE.
AND LOVE DARKNESS.
Love, laughter n keep the Faith