Hurt... Part III

It's been 2 hours now, and I am tossing and turning, trying to focus on the dull grey monitor, and it just does not go away.

I am hurt.

I am increasingly getting low on patience, and high on anger. God help the next joker who cracks (or tries to crack a joke) on me. Jesus.

I am hurt.

I am smoking almost 25 fags a day now, something that I have never ever done in my life before. I have difficulty breathing. I will die.

I am hurt.

I need to vent my anger. I have been quiet and reticent for too long.

I am hurt.

I eat almost next to nothing a day. I lecture others about keeping their health ok. I guess I would die. And all those fags. Jesus...

I am hurt.

I have dropped 5 kilos in 3 months. My lower back is FUBAR. I have problems completing 25 chinups.

I am hurt.

I wanna live. Somebody help!

Please...

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